Defining me….
Lately I have been feeling so consumed with everything except myself. I feel like I’ve been living just to maintaineveryday…ya know, make sure the kids are put together, house is clean, clothes are prepared for school, work stuff is straight, etc. My hair looks a hot mess, jilbabs (over garments) are wrinkled and tattered, pedicure needed, etc. I feel somewhat like I have not been living just kind of floating making sure the seams of my world are not frayed that I don’t have time for anything else. Hubby helps with cooking and folding clothes at times but I still feel like I’m carrying such a burden and neglecting myself. The problem is, if I had time, I feel I’ve lost of motivation to actually DO anything about it. I get out to Starbucks a few times a week when I get the kids down and am able to read a few pages of a book while drinking a bev…but that’s it. I don’t know. I am sure it’s cyclical depression but knowing the cause doesn’t make the feelings any less ya know?
Ahh, I’ve been going through the same thing as of late. For a while, I’d lost my motivation for just about everything and was really just going on autopilot. I do believe it’s cyclical, but feeling that way is so draining.
Comment by Tasha — May 20, 2009 @ 1:19p
You need to get you some sun on your face and shake the blues off. My granny used to say that. And you know what…….she was right. Once I get out into the warmth of the sun and soak up it’s rays, I feel a little better. I know that’s not a permanent cure for the blahs, but at least for that instance, I feel better.
Comment by Nikki — May 20, 2009 @ 1:50p